Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Is It Just Me?
Sometime I lay at night just thinking about how God trusted these little guys in my hands. Am I doing everything I know how to lead them back to Him? Could I do more? I know it's easy to get caught up in the day, the duties, diapers changes, problems, etc. I think about what awesome responsibility I've been handed.
I know I have a HUGE room for improvement. Of course. I think about how scary it was for our parents. I'm sure they had the same worries. There were plenty of times I'm sure I kept my mom awake because she worried for me. Worried about the friends I was choosing. Worried about the choices I was making. I know lots of prayers were said for me.
Sometimes I wonder why I put such an incredible responsibility on my shoulders but then I think about all the cuddles, the kisses, the discoveries, the playtimes. Then I look at my house and I think "My goodness, my work is cut out for me today." I sometimes weigh it out in my head. My conclusion: No matter how much more work I create for myself by having 6 children, I know, and I remember, what it was like for me before kids. There is just no comparison. I'm so glad I chose to be a mom. When I give time to find the positives instead of always seeing the work pile I have, it gives me the energy I need to roll up my sleeves and get back to work. After all, washing dishes for two wasn't nearly so exciting as setting out a table for eight.
Is it just me that thinks about stuff like this?
Written by Virginia R. at 2:09 AM