Last week I dismantled the crib for the first time in 14 years. Not super excited about it. Why am I feeling that way? Aren't some parents happy to get out of those diaper and crib stages? Doesn't it mean less physical
On the other side of it, no more babies means less work, less sleepless nights, no strollers, no diapers, no crib, no packing a diaper bag, no nursing, no binkies, no bottles.....
I don't know...... I'm extremely content. The weirdest thing is before I got pregnant with baby Genesis that we lost, I constantly was setting out 10 dinner plates. We'd be sitting at the table and I'd look around to see who was missing. It would dawn on me that we are only a family of nine. I'm talking about for months I did this. Once I got pregnant and lost the baby, I've never accidentally done this again. Weird, huh? My heart hurts thinking about never, ever having a little baby in my tummy again. Never again experiencing the miracle of birth. I don't mind waking up to those newborn cries a zillion times a night. I'm so used to it now. And believe me, it's not baby fever. I have person fever. Every single kid I have is so uniquely different that I just love learning about each one of them and I love their differences! It's so fun to see all the different personalities.
When is it time to move forward? I thought by now it'd be so obvious to me. People have told me many, many times that you'll always just know when you are done. Well, good grief, I'm still waiting for that definite feeling.