|My Mother's Day collage. Me with all my loves!!!|
My huge Mother's Day plans fell through because some crazy financial stuff happened all in one week. You know, like when you have a blowout and your van tires are so crazy expensive that it feels like you are paying for it by selling your arm or a leg? Or when you realize that your 6 months insurance plan is up and you didn't see it coming so you have to plunk down money for another 6 months? Or that summer camp money is due? Yeah! I need to write that down so I'm not surprised again! I hate paying monthly insurance because in the end you always pay so much more. It's just more cost effective to pay in advance for it. You get a huge discount. I was just so happy to have all my kids happy, healthy, and our family doing well. I had nothing to really even complain about! It's so funny because my husband offered to make lunch for us so I wouldn't have to but he forgot to actually do it. I finally got up and did it when the meat started burning. Daddy was running around trying to take care of things for me, changing diapers, etc, so he was running in all different directions. He said, "boy, this homemaking stuff is hard!" Tee hee.... it was so cute I had no problem getting up and just taking over the lunch. Next year, this mama is eating out for Mother's Day! Haha. (In the meantime I'm gonna not forget important financial events so it can happen.)
|My mom, nurse, and I on my birth day. :D Thank you, mom!|
I thought a lot about baby Genesis yesterday and how much I miss him/her. I know I say it over and over but I'm just so happy and excited that he/she is waiting for me in heaven. Even though I get sad at times, having that hope of a reunion just washes away that grief. I know with Jesus as my Savior I can have that hope of one day meeting Genesis in Heaven. Boy, I can't wait to buy the movie Heaven is for Real. I have the book but it's just such a reassurance of what is to come. I cried in the movie where the mom found out from her son that her baby was in heaven and it was a girl. After reading the book I realized that she miscarried her baby the same week of pregnancy I did. Yet her son was able to see that not only was it a girl, but the girl knew who her family was and couldn't wait to meet them! Genesis may not be here on earth but I'm a mom to 8! So grateful.
"Genesis, after seeing the movie Heaven is for Real, I realize that I really, really, really do get to see you some day and RIGHT NOW you are playing in heaven and you know we are your parents. I only carried you for 9 weeks but I feel like the luckiest mommy in the world that you made me a mommy to now 8 beauties. I'm sooooo blessed to be your mama and I CAN'T WAIT to meet you. I love you like I could never express!"