I know it's been awhile since I've posted. I took a week off from homeschooling. The first couple of days (after the weekend I miscarried) I pretty much just stayed in bed, cried, was in pain, and not much else. After those four days I couldn't handle laying down anymore. I got up and decided to spend the rest of the days off just getting my house together. My house got TORN APART while I was in bed. It was bad. The kids had fun never picking up after themselves and not having mommy remind them to. I worked so much scrubbing everything my arm had spasms and I couldn't sleep from the pain. Nobody believes me how bad the house can get when I'm down and out but it can. Believe me. Kids that don't go to school mean they are all home and living, playing, and it can add up fast.
I cleaned like I crazy lady. It was like therapy for me. I'm no perfectionist. Ha to that! But it was keeping myself busy rather than laying around and being sad. It worked. I got my house 75% organized in just a few days. I thought to my self, "my gosh, it's easy to clean when mom doesn't have to homeschool. If my kids were in school I'd have all that time to clean." I'm not gonna do that though but the thought did cross my mind. Oh well. ;) I love having them with me every day! They may be a lot of work, but I love my job 100% and wouldn't trade it to have them gone just so I can have the perfect thouse.
The other night I had my parents over, actually my mom cooked for us, and it was such a good night. We played our fun, new game Headbanz. I love it because it's so simple for a family of all ages. Even the little guys. It feels good to be back on my feet again. A heart a little bit heavier by losing a baby, but I know I have a beautiful someone waiting for me in Heaven.
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